black&gold.

Thursday, July 03, 2008

Maybe thats your way of
breaking up the silence
that fills you up.

But it doesn't sound the same
when no ones really listening..

I never fail to amuse myself on how i used to be so damn obsessed about this certain actor when i was like 12yrs old and pasted his photos all over my closet and door. Though today the colours have faded, the memories of a really embarrassing obsession still lingers. I used to open my closet just to look at his face when i was 12! Whoa i really had too much time back then but now at 18, its different. I cant help but feel embarrassed now and i do try to refrain from opening my cupboard whenever friends come over (and yes those of you who have seen it and know which actor i'm talking abt..shhhh!) i'm not planning on removing them.

Moving on..

I've moved on.
Well a long time ago actually but i kinda confirmed it with myself today. Like how there was a time last year whenever i saw or spoke to him i was always smiling like a retard and probably suffering from a massive brain freeze everytime cos you know that feeling where you're soo damn happy you're not thinking straight and feel like you're gonna say or do smthg stupid infront of the person. Those were the good times. And now after knowing the real side to him and yes it did take time getting over i actually hate having any form of conversation with him and its funny how he actually talks more this year than last. Its like i'd rather waste time stoning infront of my fishes or rabbits (which i tell you is the most intellectually demeaning thing to do)

oh and speaking of my rabbits though i don't look after them (heee!) they live a pretty damn good life. I mean think about it, all they do is sit,sleep and hop around the house, get fed good rabbit food and even chocolate sometimes and have their shitty crap cleaned up by us,and all they do is sit in their clean cages and look cute!!! Like damn..i don't mind trading places!

(as you can see, you can't make out the shape of his face and no its not all fur..hes just fat!in an adorable way though.)

Ok i've digressed and well basically i guess we all get over obsessions, fads and people one time in our life. I'm just wondering now..am i doing anything that in a few years from now i'll look back and say 'what the hell were you thinking preethi' like how i just did..
Hmmm..