black&gold.

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Now all those feelings
those yesterday feelings
will all be lost in time.

But today i've wasted away
For today is on my mind.

I have an issue with complacency.
I've no idea which direction i'm heading in life.
I have no focus,
and i've become the typical brat of the current generation.

Sucking off money from my parents & still complaining.
Going to school like its a chore & not because i want to but because i don't have another choice.

So it hit me real hard last night when Navin ettan, Priya Cheichi and my brothers asked me what i'm planning to do with my life.

I had no answer.

All that was on my mind was getting through my Yr1 again & then my A'levels.
I wasn't looking far ahead.
Honestly speaking, i don't even know whats my ambition.
No doubt it changes from time to time, but i realise i'm not driven by anything.

I know i'm on the right track, but clearly going the wrong way.

After a while i felt disgusted with myself for being stereotyped as the typical teen who lives for the day without thinking of the future ahead.
ugh.
PREETHI VALSALAN, you're soooo not one of them.

My priorities are all screwed up.
all this while i thought ok i messed up Yr1 in JC, just hope next yr turns out fine.

I'm soooo wrong.
I didnt really put much thought to where i went wrong even.

Thanks to my cousins&brothers i've realised its about time i start thinking about life after JC.
It feels really good to have u guys around to guide&advice me.
Thanks :)

Looks like i've gotta make a LONG new year's resolution list now.
Come to think about it, i never really made one before.
Talk about being complacent.

so,

Stop sitting on your brains & get your juices flowing people.